Word of the week | discomfort
This article was originally an email, which you'll see soon enough - it was the first email I sent out to my mailing list.
At the beginning of every week, I choose a word that helps me create an intention for the days ahead. I discuss its meaning, how it relates to my experience in the moment and invite you to do the same. If you’ve joined my email list, you receive this straight to your inbox on Mondays! Not subscribed yet? Click here.
It is a bit bittersweet for me to be writing this email: I had planned on having my website, elybakouche.com, launched already by now; I thought I’d have it running and all set - which is the bitter part. I feel disappointed and frustrated, maybe even a little angry. I can’t help but see this as my first business failure (not the most positive thoughts to have in mind, I know, but hey, I’m only human).
On the other hand, there is, indeed, a sweet part to bittersweet emotions: I feel excitement softly growing in my chest at the thought of having you read my words straight from your inbox today, and who knows, maybe other days, too. I have so many ideas for how I want us to connect through the platform I am creating, and the first one is this: the word of the week feature.
Every week, I like to choose a word that will help me go through the challenges a human being faces on a daily basis. Looking at the word and how it relates to my daily experiences helps me think in new ways, and it sheds light on a concept or notion I use every day without really paying attention to it.
For this week, I have chosen discomfort.
Discomfort, because every single day for the past 2 weeks, I have experienced discomfort: I just moved from France to New York City and have decided to work on my own for good.
I have felt discomfort at the idea of having to spend weeks looking for a home;
Discomfort at the idea of having to spend money I don’t have on home supplies;
Discomfort in new encounters;
Discomfort discovering how the U.S. work;
Discomfort at the supermarket, spending way too much time looking for what I need;
Discomfort feeling a bit too lonely at home as I choose this entrepreneur lifestyle;
Discomfort at the idea of my business not being sustainable through time;
Discomfort at the idea that no one will like what I write or talk about;
Or worse, discomfort at the idea that no one will really read or listen to what I write or talk about;
... And the list goes on, with the smallest things creating discomfort in my mind.
I find ways to overcome these sensations, but every day does feel a little uncomfortable.
And this is also why I have chosen to include yoga to my business: yoga allows me to feel and sit in the discomfort; it teaches me to be patient. It reminds me that the only way out is actually through the emotions and that a nurturing child’s pose is always just a few movements away. And if I manage to get this message across to you, then my mission over here on Earth is completed.
This week, I want to remember that discomfort is where everything grows; I can’t remember the last time I got a new idea after sitting on my sofa for the 100th day in a row. Can you?